Newborn Lays Next to Twin Brothers Ashes in Emotional Photo Ill Always Have a Piece Missing

Newborn Lays Next to Twin Brothers Ashes in Emotional Photo Ill Always Have a Piece Missing

Last fall, Cherie and Hayden Ayrton, of New Zealand, were excited about welcoming a set of twin boys to complete their family. But by May 2018, the family would leave the hospital with only one new baby, in a tragedy that Cherie says has changed her forever.

Cherie, 31, was 14 weeks pregnant when she announced to her friends and family that she was expecting twin boys, Tiger and Johnny. In her previous twin pregnancy, with girls, one of the babies did not survive and was absorbed in utero early on.

Despite her past, Cherie, who shares two girls — ages 5 and 2 — and a son with Hayden, says she was hopeful about her latest pregnancy and dreamed of what life would be like with the boys.

“Life would have been perfect. I wouldn’t have a broken heart now,” Cherie tells PEOPLE. “I was looking forward to completing my family. Two boys and two girls was awesome because it meant that my boys had a brother and a sister.”

Cherie had a normal pregnancy at first, she says, and expected everything to go as planned. But her hopes were crushed on Dec. 27 of last year, when she went in for an ultrasound, only to learn that Johnny’s heartbeat was undetectable.

“It was horrible, losing a child is the worst thing any parent can go through. It’s changed me forever,” the grieving mother tells PEOPLE, noting that the loss brought painful memories of her first twin pregnancy.

“I was gutted that it had happened to us again. When we lost my daughter’s twin it was very early on. I guess I felt more attached to our boy. Months of being pregnant is a long time to get organized and excited for them to arrive.”

Because she was entering her second trimester, doctors told Cherie it would be best that she carry the twins full term. And, over the next few months, the devastated mother watched as each ultrasound showed less and less of her baby boy.

On May 2, Cherie gave birth to her twins. She first shared her story with Love What Matters, writing of the births: “We cried, we smiled, we loved and we enjoyed one night with our two boys together and family surrounding us.”

She and Hayden decided to have Johnny’s remains cremated, and in the days after Tiger’s birth, Cherie connected with Sarah Simmons of Charlie Horse Photography for the baby’s newborn photo

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Hoda Kotb Gives the Sweetest Answer When Asked Whether Shell Marry Boyfriend Joel Schiffman

Hoda Kotb Gives the Sweetest Answer When Asked Whether Shell Marry Boyfriend Joel Schiffman

Hoda Kotb is giving us all the feels.

Appearing on Watch What Happens Live with Andy Cohen alongside her Today show coanchor Savannah Guthrie on Tuesday, Kotb was asked about her relationship with her  boyfriend Joel Schiffman — and whether there might be wedding bells in their future.

“I love Joel,” responded Kotb, 54. “I mean, I’m going to be with Joel until my last breath — I know that.”

“So you might Goldie and Kurt it?” asked Andy Cohen, referring to Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell, who have been happily unmarried for 35 years.

“Yeah, I think we might,” Kotb replied with a smile. “I kind of like their vibe, don’t you think?”

Kotb and Schiffman celebrated their five-year anniversary in June. The journalist and financier met at a Wall Street event and dated quietly for a couple of years before going public in 2015.

In October 2016, the couple moved in together, and now, they co-parent her 1-year-old daughter Haley Joy, whom she adopted in February 2017.

RELATED VIDEO: Hoda Kotb and Savannah Guthrie Open Up About Balancing Family with Today

Appearing on The Ellen DeGeneres Show in January, Kotb — who was previously married to Burzis Kanga from 2005-2007 — opened up about the possibility of marrying Schiffman.

“Maybe, we might,” she said at the time. “I feel like everything’s great. He’s Haley’s dad. I’m Haley’s mom. We’re together. I feel like there’s not a rush other than we’re old, and we probably, if we’re going to do it, we might as well do it. But I think it’s fun like this. I don’t mind it. … We’re enjoying our lives. Yeah, I think we’re good this way.”

As for how she knew Schiffman was the one?

“I had thought about having kids for a long, long time,” she told DeGeneres. “But one day I was sitting with my boyfriend and I said to him, ‘I’m going to have to talk to you about something because I can’t push it down anymore.’ I said, ‘Don’t answer now. Take a day, take a week, take some time. But I want to talk to you about this.’ And he said, ‘Okay, what is it?’ And I said, ‘I would like to explore adoption with you.’ “

Kotb said Schiffman, who has his own adult daughter currently studying law, didn’t hesitate: “He looked at me and said, ‘I don’t need a day.’ And I knew I’d chosen t

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Dont Even Try to Go on Until You Watch Chers SOS Music Video Starring Rumer Willis Betty Who

Dont Even Try to Go on Until You Watch Chers SOS Music Video Starring Rumer Willis Betty Who

SOS! Cher‘s new music video is so incredible you’ll need time to recover after watching it.

The video, directed by Jake Wilson, features a star-studded female cast, fabulous neon makeup and some seriously retro hair and wardrobe. (The bangs! The plaids! The turtlenecks!)

It’s no surprise, as the song itself, “SOS,” is an ABBA cover and comes from the 72-year-old icon’s tribute album to the Swedish pop group that defined the ’70s. It’s appropriately titled Dancing Queen.

RELATED: Here’s the Tracklist for Cher’s Upcoming ABBA Tribute Album — Find Out Which Songs Made the Cut

That said, Wilson’s work still feels very 2018 thanks to its healthy dose of diverse girl power. The cast ranges ages and races, and at the end they all embrace because, of course, “carrying on” is much easier when you’ve got your female friends by your side.

As for the familiar faces, fans will spot Rumer Willis and Australian pop star Betty Who — though there’s no appearance from the music icon, herself.  Also recognizable? Trace Lysette from Transparent and Aimee Carrero from Freeform’s Young & Hungry.

Following her turn in Mamma Mia! 2, Cher recently dished about her A-list love life to British outlet The Daily Mail’s Mail on Sunday.

RELATED: From Tom Cruise to Val Kilmer and Even Richie Sambora: Cher Opens Up About Her A-List Love Life

Some of famous men Cher named? Tom Cruise, Val Kilmer, Sonny Bono, Richie Sambora, Gene Simmons, Gregg Allman and a bagel baker, who she revealed may’ve been “the one true love of my life.” The pair dated for three years before calling it quits in 1989.

While Cher hasn’t been married since 1978, she said she hasn’t stopped searching for Mr. Right.

RELATED VIDEO: Cher and Ellen Take Over a Drybar and Give Some Unwitting Customers Incredible ‘Do

“I’m still on the lookout,” she told the paper. “The problem I have with all the boyfriends lately is that I don’t want to go any place with them because you can’t keep a relationship going in this kind of goldfish bowl, where everything you do and every picture you have taken will be on Instagram… There’s no way to keep something… special.”

Dancing Queen is currently slated for release on Sept. 28. Preorder

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Nick Jonas and Fiancée Priyanka Chopra Match in Camo While Embracing the Ranch Life

Nick Jonas and Fiancée Priyanka Chopra Match in Camo While Embracing the Ranch Life

The couple that wears camo together stays together!

Priyanka Chopra, 36, and Nick Jonas, 26, fully embraced the local aesthetic while hanging out with friends in Oklahoma this week.

In two pictures of the group shared to Instagram, Chopra opted for a striped button-down shirt, camo pants and boots, while Jonas — still sporting his mustache — wore a long-sleeve camo shirt, olive pants, and boots. Chopra wore her long hair down under a camo hat that matched Jonas’ cap.

In one picture, the duo stood in front of a tractor as Chopra slung her arm around Jonas. In another picture, Chopra smiled as she sat on Jonas’ knee.

“Ranch life,” wrote Chopra.

RELATED: Nick Jonas and Priyanka Chopra Reveal Their Hilarious and Very Cheeky Celebrity Couple Nickname

Chopra and Jonas’ camo moment came during a string of travels for the jet-setting pair.

Last Saturday, they marked Jonas’ birthday weekend at a baseball game in Anaheim, California, and on Sunday, they took the celebration to a football game in Arlington, Texas. Chopra and Jonas also posed with his brother Joe Jonas, 29, in Dallas.

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Birthday Hang. ⚾ 🎉

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Happy birthday baby. 💋❤@nickjonas

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Stay cool. 😎



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